The truth is that I have commitment issues. Not to my husband. We've been together for 15 years, married for almost 11.5 of those years, and we still like each other. Based on how we survived the last 9.5 years, I'm pretty sure we're in it for the long haul.
But when it comes to committing to other things, I don't do well. Jobs, careers, volunteer work, even things I do for the boy. I have BIG ideas… but my follow through is mediocre at best. Sometimes though, I hit it out of the park! And it's awesome when I do! But those moments are dimmed by the many times I strike out. Or worse... never even step up to the plate.
Tonight I told my husband about something I wanted to do. Something I signed up for a month ago that is happening tomorrow night. He looked at me and asked why I didn't say anything sooner. Well, because I'm scared. I told him it was him - his negativity - I didn't want to deal with it. To which he replied that he's only negative because I never follow through on anything. Ouch. (But he's right. Crap. I hate when he's right.)
So did I not tell him because I wasn't sure if I was really going to do it? I don't know. Maybe.
But I'm going to do it. I'm going to go tomorrow night and step outside my box and try something I've wanted to do for a very long time.
What is it? I'll tell you more tomorrow after I go!
Just tell me to break a leg ;)
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